I could eat my weight in cheesecake

It’s week 16 of Weight Watchers and I have lost 17.6 pounds. Yea! Although I feel right on schedule and do not feel I am in major denial or anything–I really want to eat everything today.
Seriously-I could inhale a BLT with a 1/2 Lb. of Bacon and a cup of mayo followed by cheesecake with choclate sauce. What is going on? I feel I am dreaming in calories and not seeing the long term results. I really want weight not to be an issue but I think it’s always going to be on my resolution list. Keep truckin’-I say to myself but I am distracted by a Popeye’s commercial.
I have so many dreams-(1.) to shop always in the regular section in a one digit size forever (2.) to feel my outside prettiness matches the way I feel about myself inside. (3.) to be way active with my sons and not give running a second thought. (4.) to run a triatholon with my husband (5.) to raise my kids in a healthy lifestyle
Whew–craving mayo alert has passed–
I will brew some chai and breathe deeply.

Why I am starting a blog

                 For me-journaling is like drinking my perfectly brewed coffee in the morning: it is essential.  I am a mother of two boys under three and a senior co-pastor at a church (where I work with the other pastor, my husband).  My journaling has almost completely stopped because I’ve been folding laundry or visiting someone at the hospital.  What if I have no record of this part of my life?  How will anyone ever make a complete movie about me?  I will blog.

             OK-all of that isn’t exactly true.  I saw Julie and Julia 2 times and was inspired to start writing.  My goal is to write on this blog EVERY SINGLE DAY for this year.  I know I will be a better mom, wife, and pastor. I hope?