I try-hard. My intentions are always to have a clean house, a growing church that knows I love them, happy sons, and a satisfied husband. I want to be an excellent friend, a fabulous cook and a stylish dresser. I want people to see all of my efforts and know I am a woman of God who gives everything her all.
Then the inevitable happens. I disappoint someone. I forget to call, forget to send a present, don’t have time to shower, and burn whatever I am trying to make. My husband is frustrated at my attitude and I can’t figure out how to breathe deeply. Then it is my turn to be hard on myself. If I had more courage I would throw up my hands in despair and give up. But I keep plodding on–hoping that every step will bring me closer to the one who made me.
I want to be honed in on God’s voice. Only. It’s just that all the other voices are so loud. So I bow my head and pray this prayer:
My Jesus, Help me. I can’t do this life without you in the center of all that I do. Please get in the way of my to-do list and my responsibilities. I’m tired of listening to other’s opinions of who I am. May every effort bring you glory and may I get no credit for what you do through me. Give me a listening ear to the sound of your voice. Thank you for calling me worthy. I am nothing without you. Amen.
Wow. Who let you in to record my life? You just vocalized my thoughts… LOVE the prayer. Thanks for sharing.